I absolutly hate being sick. I would much rather be at work right now than sitting at home in this weird slow-mo state of mind. I always get a cold in the start of spring, and I have no Idea why. Perhaps it's the orange blosomes, or mabey the sudden increase in humidity that happed Sunday. Either way I'm over it. I hope it is gone by tomorow morning, because I have to go to work regardless. Guess I should make the most of it as long as I can stay upright for a little while I can get some gaming on, and do some reading. The worst part is I constantly tell others and myself that" I don't get sick." I belive in positive thinking to a point, but every year it still happens.

    To quote Ice Cube "Today was a good day." The new guy at work is cool as shit. He even liked Reverend Horton Heat turned up loud( we will see How he feels about the techno) . So I'm excited about my new bay neighbor. Speaking of wich I found out another guy at work Had a heart attack, So that is sad. I hope he is alright and comes to his senses and finds a less stressfull job (one day I hope I do the same.) Right now I'm getting drunk at home and waching Idol. That Irish Tattoo'd Chick is so cool. It seems to be the season of the rockers. I think the pop and country acts don't stand a chance against all of the rockers this season.  All the cats have had their flea medicine, and I am off tomorow. I would like to say I will be getting artwork done, but alas I will most likely be tring to get my cleric up to level 7 (for all the geeks out there.) Peace and love to all y'all out there.

                         So as I mentioned in a previous post the New guy working next to me was a douche. Well aparently last Saturday, I was off, he brought a gun to work and threatened one of the service writers. Needles to say once word got around he was fired. He's is comming in tomorow to get his shit. I hope everything goes smothly. I'm all for gun ownership, but guys like this where just born in the wrong century. 
                        Other than that no news only that the weather here was beautiful today. We had very strong winds all day folowed by intense afternoon showers. Makes me want to dig up my old cds and listen to "I'm only happy when it Rains."  

    And after housework and working out I ready to delve into neverwinter nights diamond. Yes I'm a little far behind in the gamer world, but it's new to me. I have also rediscovered ska  -punk and I think The Specials are my new favorite old band, for now. The toasters are pretty damn rockin'  too. I tried to get into the original Jamaican  shit , but the lyrics can be a bit backwards and misogynist. the groove is good though. Had a panic moment just a while ago when we thought one of our cats got out, but he did turn up. That little bastard hides good.
    After this protein shake settles a bit I'm ready to hit the beer. I will probably stay in though. I kind of miss going out but for 10 years I probably partied enough for 2 lifetimes.
gotta go hunt some orc

So It only took me two days to figure out how to create and upload my own ringtones. So not only is Pappi very happy to have "I want it all" as his ringer, I also get to have tons of fun with obscure ska tracks ;-)  I only wish I could be this excited about work. Although work  is going well this week. I just started on my second trany for the week. (trany like transmission not  like a shim). Heavy line is so much more interesting than doing trim or noise complaints all day. However my best work bud is out for training and the new guy next to me is a total douche bag. I get along great with the rednecks,  and even the two Evan. Christian guys down the row, but this guy is so fucking iritating. It's not just me either no one can stand him. Guess he is there to teach me rage control, and put my politeness to the test. Got to get some sleep so I can get up and freeze my nuts off agian in the morning. OK so 50 may not be cold to all yall up north but to a thin blooded Floridian it might as well be snowing. 

For the last 3 days I've had my monitor and keyboard tied up while I was trying to heal a friend's computer.  It had a  nasty virus, and even though I tracked down the files the system still had major issues. So he got a clean OS install. Hopefully he will know better than to download "free" porn in the future. I set him up with firefox so that may help. but Now i got my baby booted back up with about 50 new emails. I traded days with a guy from work feels weird to be off on Monday. I'm with Jaybehr on the whole video news thing If I wanted to watch the news I would use the TV.  Good news we got girl scout cookies yesterday. The bad news is we got girl scout cookies yesterday. My poor hubby can't keep his hands out of the cookie jar. I had to hide the rest of them before he runs out of insulin. No I'm not a feeder, but I can't micro-manage his appetite either.  I'm going to try to get out of the house before 1:00 so I guess I sign off here.
Later

    The latest webesoide of Cubby Talk continues the on going debate on weather or not Bears are inclusive or exclusive.  Though I have to say my involvement with bear culture has been minimal in the last 4 Or so years, I can tell you I have not ever felt unwelcome at any bear bar me and my partner have gone to, and often I can be a bit more colorful than standard  bears.  Back then I was a big fan of realy baggy jeans and aloha shirts. I guess is was the salvageable wardrobe left in the aftermath of my gothic-punk-rock, hippy-Rave daze, plus big pants and combat boots are fun to dance in .  the only "butch" clothes I had were work shirts (witch I'm still a fan). I think the majority of the community gets it right.  Yes manly is hot,  but taking it to seriously spoils the fun. And it should be fun, Its a social scene, not prison so can the alpha dog games. If you want to fight go hang with the jocks and  MMA guys I think a lot of my good experiences come from the fact that we lived in a smaller city (Tampa, St, Pete).  In fact the larger Gay scene was quite inclusive as well. We  met at a video/sports bar that was a real melting pot of all types and ages  of men and women.  In such a magical place a grizzly from Ohio connected with a punk boy  from Kentucky. If you want to see a very inclusive diverse scene try Key West anything goes and everyone mixes beautifully.    

    This journal for me is all about emptying out all of the mental garbage I carry around on a typical day. So right off the bat I apologize for any grammatical errors.  My goal is to try and talk out issues on this journal so I don't spend so many countless hours on the internet looking for answers to obscure questions. I did not know live journal even existed until about a week ago when I discovered cubby talk on you tube. So that got me intrigued into whats going on here.
    Today I am off work and I went to an information session at a community college. I'm strongly considering getting a degree in network administration, because I am getting a little burnt out of the auto industry and working too hard for not enough money.  I also may simply get my A+ certification on my own without school. I already have a degree in computer science so every one always wants to know why am I working in the garage.  First of all as my moniker suggest I am a bit of a punk I love tattoos and hope to get many in the future. I always thought that this would be a block in me getting an office job so I never went for it. Stupid me never considered the magic attributes of LONG SLEEVES!  Although I'm gay I actually feel more comfortable in the garage than I do in most  "professional" environments.  Is it unusual that dudes in suits intimidate me more than the bruisers.  I guess I can attribute it to the fact that most of the men in my extended family are burly bearded blue collar guys, witch probably explains my fascination with bears. I'm  pretty sure I have some type of social anxiety disorder but I can't afford the shrink to fix it.  Self help has helped a lot but it is still difficult for me to not be so timid all the time. I think I have an unhealthy attachment to my shyness and I need to let it go and to exercise raising my voice everyday.  Is sure as hell is easier to say than to do though.